mikahnafri
midnight serenade 5/17/2009 12:09:00 PM
hey, really sry ppl. been really busy. done thinking through. so basically the title says everything.
i'm literally banged up. got some shit that happened on saturday. with some old geezer. he pushed my mom off the escalator while she was trying to pick up my sister's wallet.
MOM: excuse why did you push me?!
GEEZER:ppl trying to walk right. what's your problem?!
ME:EH! what's yours, shut up la.
GEEZER:your mother teach you that ah!
ME:you got problem with my mother is it. like your mother teach you properly.
next thing i knew a luggage bag flew to me.which didn't hurt til i went to the docs. CRACKED RIBS.
nearly punctured up my lungs. now, i cant meet CRYSTAL cos of this. to make it worst, i've really been someone else. been so mad. how do i explain this. maybe its easier to be written then said. I'm really afraid tht it's back. tht thing chained up in me. CRYING at night just begging it wouldnt. and all those thoughts keep coming back.
MIKAH's THOUGHTs:
i love her,
but what am i doing.
i'm always not there.
will my promises just be words to her.
pls dont come out again...pls...
i'm saying sorry to her
but i know she's still hurt.
i'm sorry.
mikah youre just a loser
you leave her there
and what you do
you leave her with more things to worry
she's just a girl for god sake.
WHAT AM I???
WHO ARE YOU MIKAH???
you always talk about the better side.
where is hers?
can you just pls stop???
END
it's gonna sound funny when you read it. but think about it. you think about every single detail this way. NO MORE!!!!!! she really means a lot to me and i'm gonna prove it. put my life on these words. cross my heart. my life. i'll remember these words. i'm not just gonna sit here and think of you knowing you really need me. i'm just gonna do something bout this.
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